Below are the 11 most recent journal entries recorded in Sydney's LiveJournal:

Saturday, April 30th, 2005
12:48 pm	My Last Time.. Well this is the last time Im writing in my livejournal. I have moved to greatest journal. You can see my journal at www.greatestjournal.com/users/iwannabeheld      Well, good bye. ::tears up:: Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Sunday, March 20th, 2005
11:16 am	OMFG!!! My cousin is here 4 all sring break and hes so annoying. And he takes advantage of my mom, cause he acts like a spoiled brat! And when we have to do chores... I have 9 things, and he only has 4 things,  and 3 of them are w/ my help!!! Ahhh I really dont like him. And Im gonna have no time 4 friends this summer (again)! Summer is only 2 months and Im going 2 europe for 3 wks. going down 2 ft. laterduale for 1 wk. (thats 1 month gone!) then hes coming up here 4 2 weeks!! And I wanna take summer p.e. (much better then)! I AM PISSED!                                          Happy Easter! Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)
Friday, March 11th, 2005
8:40 pm	Nothin much Nothin much is going on. Last time I went to update, the site wouldnt let me. And I wrote alot too. Which kinda amde me a little mad. But I got over it. If you ar ereading this you know me, and if you know you should know this , or NEVER do it! 1) When ppl are like "Oh Im so short, look how short Iam, blah, blah ,blah!" NO ONE CARES HOW FUCKING SHORT YOU ARE! Inless you are 2 in. high in 12th grade, STFU! 2) When ppl keep asking if they look okay OVER and OVER again, after someone tells you, you do! 3) When you are skinny, and ppl say "oh look how fat Iam. And they pinch no fat and say look "Im so fat". If you say that around me I WILL NOT TALK TO YOU FOR LIKE 3 MONTHS!!!! Im suppose to be cleaning the bathroom. It needs to be done before my mom gets home, or I cnat go to Megan's Saturday. And I NEED to go to her house! Latley I have been getting into poetry! Here is a poem I wrote!                                                                                  Look at her! Look at her!                                                                                                                                                                                         So fraile and weak. Look at her!                                                                                                                                                                                         Pale as the sheets. Look at her!                                                                                                                                                                                         As her thick eyelashes lay on her cheeks.  I look at her, she opens her eyes, glossy and blank.    What happend to her you ask? .                                                                                                                                               She thought there was no other way out.  She pressed the cold razor to her wrist. All she did was one deep slit. But one was enough. She bled 10 pints of blood, before they got her to the hospital. Now they keep her on Morphine and Valume All thats left of this dark time is a deep purple scar And a girl so far.....so far away Look at her!   Wow that was very unexpected! That was not planned out. Well I gotta go and clean! I really hope this posts!                                                                       xo Sydney                                                     Current Mood: jealous (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 27th, 2005
7:10 pm	Hello everyone. Well there is a couple of things. 1) My pets are very annoying   2) I want a boy friend SO BAD! 3) I was thinking about it, and strippers make alot of money in like 1 hr. And sex isn't bad, and they would ALWAYS have to wear a condom. But I dont know....... 4)  People need to stop caring so much what other people think 5) I wanna change this back ground but  I cant remember how 6) I dont know what I would do w/o my friends. I mean seriousally! 7) I felt like "OMG" Friday w/ Megan. Why? Cause I was like OMG what am I gonna do w/ my life when I grow up? I mean high school is this year and I wanna get my career started some time in H.S. And I dont know what I wanna be. I mean I have always wanted to be an astranuat. But that's like 10 yrs. more  in school. And thats not guarenteeing Im going into space. I also would like to be a nurse( lots of school to), a vet (but I cant put down animals), a teacher ( put that pays nothing), or a sycoligist (how ever u spell it) (u know, the people that listen to other people's problem). Ahhhh I dont know what to do 8) Then I started to cough and I was like Mom why haven't u taken me to the doctor yet. And she was like, " You never told me to take u to the doctor". I told her I shouldn't have to tell her to take me to the doctor, she should just know, I mean she is my mom. And when I cant breathe because Im coughing so hard, that should be a HUGE clue. 9)  I really wanna go shopping, but my mom wont give me money. Well that all Folks!!! AND IM HOT AND HUNGRY!! Current Mood: hungry (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 23rd, 2005
7:58 am	OMG! I really need to go back to sleep! And I feel so BLAH! And everyone knows that feeling. And Iv'e had so meuch H.W. that I had when I was absent. And I haven't done any thing! And my body WONT let me do it either. And at this current moment I cant stop fucking snezzeing!!!! I just snezzed 9 times. Anyone got (10 times) a "GOD BLESS YOU 4 ME"?(11 times)(12times) Why cant I stop sn(13 times)ezzing!!! (14) Seriousally!!! All the (15) things like that are every time i snezze(16). And I have to get ready 4 school and I have no idea what Im wearing. And fuck I have to do my hair!!!! Being a girl SUCKS!!! (well sometimes)! Its already 8:07 and I leave the house at 8:41 and my bus comes shortly after.........so that only gives me 30 MINUTES!!!!! So Im gonna gat offf the labtop now! P.S. Dont 4get to say god bless you 4 me! :)   (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 17th, 2005
1:45 pm	Sick again! OMG! Everyone is sick! Me, Pari, Megan, Tera. I had a fever of 102.4 this morning but my mom still made me go to school. I thought I was gonna pass out so my mom came and got me. Then as soon as I walked in the front door I ran to the bathroom cause I was ready to throw up.And I did. So I laid down for a while, then my mom was like, " sweety get up, ur burning up, take some medicine". So I got up and took some medicine. Now I cant sleep cause my mom is going for a consiltation for cosmetic surgery on her eyes, and my new kitchen is being put in and they are makeing a lot of noise! And Im not gonna sleep on the couch with my mom gone and 2 strange guys in my house. That would be wrong! My new kitchen is REALLY pretty! Once we have the house done (painting , floors put in, kitchen done, bathroom done) we are gonna have a open house type thing. And of course there is NOTHING on t.v! And Im SUPER hot! And SUPER hungry! All Ive had in the last 2 days is 2 servings of soup and crakers! And there is nothing to eat in my house cause of the kitchen thing! And I wanna go to school cause I miss not seeing any of my friends! :( And its really starting to get annoying w/ everyone asking me if my eyebrow hurts! No it didnt hurt and No it doesnt hurt! Well this is all 4 now.                                                                                                 xo Sydney Current Mood: sick (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, February 14th, 2005
9:23 pm	SO sick Im pissed of cause my mom doessn't beleive Im sick! I took my temp. right in front of her and it said 99.8 and she goes, ur fine! I have a headache, my throat hurts, runny nose, coughing, sore ribs(burning) and feel crappy. But my mom doesnt belive Im sick. She thinks Im a Hipocondreact (person that ALWAYS thinks there sick). Hmmm I wonder why Im so sick???!!! I went to Megan's Saturday night. I ( in a bikini) went in the hotub, FREEZING pool , back in the hotub, one more time in the pool, then in the hotub 4 the rest of the time. And of course its the night when its like 30 degrees out! >.<  And I really wanna stay home tomorrow! So Im gonna go to school tomorrow, then Wednesday Im gonna be REALLY sick! Jen (a family friend) is going back to Tennesee tomorrow! And you know what else, Im fucking sick of people calling me a good damn poser!!!! Just cause I got my fucking eyebrow pierced doesnt mean Im a PUNK! DO NOT FUCKING LABEL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!   If you dont like me for who Iam and ONLY by the clothes that cover my body then...... FUCK YOU!!!!   I guess I really know who my true friends are!!! I mean it doesnt bother me a whole lot but it starts to get REALLY fucking annoying!!!! I mean if you dont like someone keep it to urself, for WHATEVER reason. And the TRUTH behind people calling other people names and putting them down, is............. 1) There self consious 2) They really hate themselves 3) They are jealous or 4) They are FUCKED up in the head!!! So if some calls you a name or puts you down or whatever, think to urself,   wow that person is reall sick in the head! See if someone had Cancer you wouldnt be mean to them (i hope not)  So why be mean to a person that is Mentally sick???? Dont feed there fire, give them pity and know that there sick! But,,, if they are just fucking ASSHOLES then your allowed to fucking KILL them! :) LOL Well I got to go and finish HW on the computer. Blah! HAPPY VALENTINES DAY EVERYONE!!!  Current Mood: sick (Comment on this)
Friday, February 11th, 2005
8:02 pm	Pissed but Happy Happy cause.......(i dont wanna say cause i want it to be a suprize), but it hurts bad! Pissed cause Jessica is being a dushbag!!! She needs to shut her fucking mouth! I love megans latest journal! I wanna see MAN OF THE HOUSE! Ahhh Valentines day is Monday, but I  dont have a Valentine! :( Current Mood: sore (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 9th, 2005
4:01 pm	Hate being lied to! So, I talked to Cass. And he said Nicole kept bugging him to tell me he didn't  like me, and he was like no! And he never said that I was fat and ugly, all he said was he didnt like me. Which is cool w/ me! But what Im not cool w/ is people lieing to me! Nicole added the fat ugly and never in a million years part. So Tera thought what Nicole was saying was true. Ahh why cant Nicole leave me alone! And she thinks I dont like her (well I dont now)  so thats why she doesn't like me. But I really dont care anymore! But Iam very pissed off! And yes Im ok that Cass doesnt like me. I knew he didnjt, so not that big of a shocker! Current Mood: pissed off (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 8th, 2005
5:08 pm	1) cASS 2) Jessica                             Jessica came over and said a whole bunch of crap that totally WASEN'T TRUE. Like.......... 1) I talk about Megan. 2) I say bad stuff about Tera ( i have once or twice) 3) I said shit about her cousin to her face. 4) I made a website cause every one else has one. 5) I did live journal cause everyone else has one. (fyi: I have had it for like EVER) AND ALL THE SHIT IS A LIE! AND YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE, IM NOT HOLDING BACK ANY FEELINGS CAUSE THIS IS MY JOURNAL.                                                                Now to the "Cass the ASS" situation Nicole and Tera were like Cass said that I was Fat, Ugly, and he wouldn't go out w/ me in a million years Then Brittany confronted Cass , and Cass said he didn't say that stuff. So, who do I beleive? A girl that doesn't like me and one of my best friends, OR my guy friend that I like????                                                                              Just Stuff *Well thats all for now. Have to go to the airport at 10:30 to pick up a family friend. *I wanna be in love w/ some one loves me *Get over all the SHIT thats happened to me in my life *I just wanna be w/ my friends and everyone on the earth go away 4 a while *Be PEACE on earth *A world were no one cares about weight  *I wanna cry cry and cry (not cause of cass) *I wanna sleep and not wake you 4 a while *For an odd reason, be in the hospital *Punch myself in the head *Cuddle w/ some 1 *Jump on the trampoline *Change my look  by......      Dying my hair, Get lipo, Change my nose *I wanna come across serenity                                                                      THATS ALL FOR NOW       Current Mood: frustrated (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 5th, 2005
8:34 pm	First Entry  Well this is the first time I have had one of these. I dont know what to write. I will later. Im suppose to be doing chores but.........  Megan's gonna be gone Monday! :(   She's going to the Superbowl in Jacksonville. I hope the eagles win! :)  I have an urge to just sleep till October. And see a scary movie.   Well thats all for now.   Oh yeah.                      And I like Cass but I  KNOW he doesn't like me. But I  REALLY like him. And I dont want to ask him cause if he says NO then Im gonna be really embarassed and then REALLY heart broken. Then Im gonna be REALLY depressed and do some thing that I know people wont be to happy w/ me if I did it. Why cant he just like me? I think he likes Nicole, he's always looking at her. I know this cause Im looking at him. I know you guys dont care, but I git to get this out! Current Mood: depressed (Comment on this)